| Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 03:18 pm Getting crafty... |
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I've been doing some minor home improvement shit. Mostly that involved moving shit, refinishing a shelf and then reorganizing EVERYTHING!!! Its been good. I have put up hooks and shit I'll take a picture once I'm finished. It should be pretty freakin' sweet. I've been doing more art but I still need to get a new copy of photoshop before I can scan shit.
This journal entry sucked. I'm not doing much of note besides adventuring. I really don't know what to say... I will write more again someday. |
| Jul. 1st, 2008 @ 12:59 pm NO WAYS! |
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| Totally found a house. Totally working on the paperworks so we can move in. I am so excited. I can't contain myself. I'm just busting out all over the place. |
| Jun. 16th, 2008 @ 04:08 pm (no subject) |
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| I had an awesome time at Alek's birthday. We played at the park... slew a few dragons... found the holy grail and had a balloon fight. I pretty much think it couldn't get better. The only downside was that now I'm really really gross feeling. It hurts to talk and I kinda just wanna go to sleep. Go me. Also working on becoming an SG. Woo hoo... goodnight. |
| Jun. 1st, 2008 @ 12:14 pm A change of pace... seriously |
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So... get this: I feel good! I've been working long days. Getting up at six setting up at the Market, coming home for a rest and then going to the commissary and doing the bake for the next morning. And I feel good. I haven't even hardly been sleeping and I feel alright. I've even been working out (I run up and down the stairs while things bake and do squats and stuff). It is amazing!
In other news Atarah and I are working on a design for not only our commissary space but for a new home. The idea is amazingly good and we're going to start drafting it out. We're also going to start doing a little book club, just the two of us. So we stopped at halfprice books on the way home from the Market and then we're going to go bake later. I'm in a great mood. I feel healthier and happier than I can remember being in a long time, maybe ever. Also Jeremy and I are working on improving our communication and figuring out what we want to do in life. Oh and I actually got along with Robert the other day. So yeah... that's new, huh? |
| May. 7th, 2008 @ 03:05 pm If you're not in the mood for angst skip this one |
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I just feel like saying fuck really really loudly. Jeremy has been really depressed. He's obsessed with money and with obtaining what he considers 'worth while'. Like he isn't worth anything unless he's got a good enough job or a good enough level of education etc... and its been like this on and on for so long. But he doesn't stick anything out. He doesn't do anything about it except continuously change his mind about what he wants to do. It is all we ever talk about. And now he's asking me if I'm cool with him joining another band... an 'established band' or however he put it. This after we just talked about trying to get our recording set up worked out so we can get something done. After all the shit he gave me about not taking our band seriously enough. I've drawn up four logos and started two new songs. It just pisses me off.
I'm just angry... and there are things that come up when I feel like this. I remember little things. I wonder if I'm making the best decisions for everyone. I'm wondering what I should be doing in all this. I feel like... I feel like my voice isn't heard. Or maybe I'm just talking to the wrong people. I just feel like I've spent so much time focusing on trying to help him and I'm not getting any support in return. If I get upset he completely shuts me out. It makes me so angry and I can't control myself. He treats me like I'm crazy and it makes me feel crazy. I had an extreme attack of the wiggins last night. I had to lock myself in the bathroom. My music is getting darker again. I really really just need to figure this out. Maybe I just need to start a new project with someone else and get a little distance creatively. I I I I really hate that all my sentences in this stupid thing start with "I".... its so lame. |
| Apr. 8th, 2008 @ 08:37 am my hands and the owwww |
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My hands are all fucked up right now. It is painful to do THIS actually... which leads me to think I might just go watch Anthony Bourdain and have an espresso. I had a jacked up dream about a garage sale. This old man handed me Pokemon cards and I was trying to look at Anime before they closed and this blond boy kept showing me creepy ass movie series. Like one in which something goes wrong and everyone with the last name Nguyen has to die... and it was like five dvds and I was like OMG there are a lot of those that is fucked up. And this kid just smiles and Ewwww!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow... please ignore the massive run-on... I'm retarded. Oh.... I dunno I guess that is all. Bah |
| Apr. 6th, 2008 @ 03:35 pm (no subject) |
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... and so it continues. No wheat... mrrrr.........
I don't know that I have much to say. Things are up in the air. I don't know what is happening let alone why or how. I feel really on edge. Diet modification is not my forte. It is annoying and because there is so much extra effort put into figuring out what to eat it leaves me feeling uninspired in other areas. I kinda just want to run around in circles screaming my head off. |
| Mar. 29th, 2008 @ 04:08 pm Riceflour and ricey peoples... |
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This is what my life has been like.
In other news... I have been watching a lot of Buffy and I am just starting to draw again some more. I think I might finally be developing my own style again. Uhhhh... I don't know. Strawberry has been my best friend lately. Things are kinda intense... and at the same time I have this strange calm coming on again. It isn't something I feel terribly often. In fact I can only think of a few times when it has happened before and those were in my dark ages. Ummmmm meow. I feel all monkish.... like a monk... not monkey. And at the same time everything seems to be moving in a red direction. Oh and apparently red is my lucky color which I think is funny.
BAH! Obviously I haven't been really journalizing in a long time. It feels tacky and strange. I have however been thinking a lot. When I look in the mirror now I see the person I want to see. Other people have been seeing it too. I was surprised. Suddenly people want to talk to me... in fact I've found men-types flirting with me even more than girl-types which is completely new. Or at least mostly new. I also find that for the first time it doesn't bother me... the flirting. Usually it would be a frustration. Now it is just kind of like a fact. Oh I don't know.
I guess there should be more. There isn't really. I'm cooking less and more at the same time. I'm pretty much on my own most of the time. It is good and bad. I'm starting to get used to the idea of Jeremy going to NJ for a year... and at the same time terrified of the possibility. I just know when he was in Germany for a month it seemed like forever. I also know it will be easier to stay in touch with him while he's in New Jersey... but I'm still entirely confused about the entire thing. I don't know how I should feel, or if I can. It might be too hard. Right now it feels easier to just skate through... pretend like everything is normal and let it blow over. A week ago I couldn't talk about it without crying and now I don't even know what to feel... then we had a really good interaction for the first time in a while which left my emotions even more toasted. I feel kind of burnt out. Just there but not really doing anything. Also all the people I feel like I could have a constructive conversation about this with are probably just the people I shouldn't talk to about it... I dunno
I got back in touch with Eric... I dunno about a week ago. I'm hoping to get some balls and go see him soon. lol. I'm still not really wanting to go to Reckless. But I know seeing him will be great. It always is. I dunno. Seems like no one uses this anymore except Sarah S. So meh. Maybe someone will get bored and I can entertain them with my slight tidbit of drama. I feel like butter... stretched... you get it. ok. done. |
| Mar. 22nd, 2008 @ 10:34 am The world of Lou |
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So I just started teaching myself to do calligraphy. I also am temporarily experimenting with not eating wheat... which is way way harder than it sounds. Yay for rice cakes!?
Umm... oh and I got really sick and I'm reading hella buffy comics 'cause I'm just that cool! |
| Feb. 24th, 2008 @ 08:18 am long ass time since I posted... |
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| I feel like I've regained my childlike innocence. Right now the world doesn't feel like a long series of closed doors anymore. The only problem I have at the moment is deciding what to do five minutes from now... Yeah. I know... Silly. So I guess this might be one of my few non-emo lj posts... I usually don't post unless I'm feeling emo. I guess that is because that emo shit is juicier... Uhhh... lulz. I think I'm going to call Chloe today... I just can't decide if I think she'll be awake yet. I think I'll call her at 9. That is a pretty neural hour. And if no one is awake no one will answer the phone and I'll leave a really nice message. Heh... still kinda nervous. But in an excited way. 'cause I know I caused all this strife by being an ass and now that I finally can admit it I got a chance of cleaning it up. Ok. Done. Fer rills. |
| Jan. 20th, 2008 @ 09:05 am (no subject) |
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| Went to see the Summit play... the guys did good. I was really glad I went. Got to check in with Karen and exchange info. So soon I should be going to see her stuff at this gallery by my work. It was nice hearing she's doing well. She's already sold 5 paintings. I dunno. Just happy I guess. So proud of Nick, Nathan and Andy. <3 Those boys. |
| Jan. 18th, 2008 @ 12:14 pm OMG ART FUN! |
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Need I say more really...?
Well... Yeah.
Anyhow, I spent yesterday chillin' with Alek's brother Nik. It looks like we're going to be working together on developing a comic and we're both really excited about it. I think that it is going to work really well because we like a lot of the same stuff and our styles are similar enough to blend really well. So basically we're drafting up some character designs. Right now we're right at the beginning but once we've hung out more we'll get a better idea for the feel of it.
Oh and I likes my job. <3's market peeps... oh and I think I found someone to design the tattoo I want, but I gotta wait until there are less people in line for commissions. Ahhh I will hella link to her later and post new drawings. I am in SUCH a good mood.
<3 Louisifer
PS People need to update more often 'cause I get bored!!! |
| Jan. 13th, 2008 @ 03:09 pm (no subject) |
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| So on top of having s great time back at 3 girls and kicking major doughy ass... I'm also working more on art stuffs. I dunno I had more to say but I forgot because there's a really cute raccoon sleeping in the tree out my window... omg. SLEEPING ALL CURLED UP IN A BALL IN THE CROOK OF THE TREE!!!!! |
| Jan. 8th, 2008 @ 09:52 pm I'm totally doing breadland alone tomorrow. |
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| So if you're at the market between six and ten on Wednesday, come say hi! 'Cause I'll be there. Oh and I get to see Mary. SWEEEET. Yeah... I dunno. Whatevs |
| Jan. 4th, 2008 @ 01:42 pm (no subject) |
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I went to sleep at 8:30 last night, and somehow managed to wake up tired. However, my tiredness was made up for by Krysta's cheerful attitude Kacie's cuteness and the awesome cowboy boots I found at the rummage sale. Lately I've been having lots of second hand luck (not that this is out of the ordinary,) including that I found a pimpass knee length, fur lined, tan colored, double breasted, limited edition London Fog jacket for $20 @ Goodwill. Basically I'm a happy camper.
The whole learning how to cook thing is going well. I recently learned how to make a really yummy sauce. I'm also thinking about asking Michael if he wants to take a class on making sauces with me, because we both want to, so why not? The baking front has also been good. I'm really experienced at making Rugelach now. Oh and I can making multiple different kinds of pasta. I even made raviolis! I don't know. I'm still tired. Mmmrr.
Ahh before I forget, I'm also learning how to draw animals. Like from little kids art instruction books because I wanna learn and that was what they had at the library. Lol. I'm totally laughing at myself right now. Go me. So yeah. I dunno. Learn learn learn.
<3 Louisifer
PS Getting up at 5:00 = boo! |
| Dec. 31st, 2007 @ 07:16 pm Getting ready for a crazy party |
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| Going to Eve's 60th birthday party this new year's eve. On the waterfront in a photography studio. Lots of ex love family peeps plus Evilina's family. Should be tons of fun and if I can find my camera I will post pics. <3 |
| Dec. 23rd, 2007 @ 05:20 pm About to go to my aunt rose's |
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| Should be nice to see uncle Ralph. I'm tired. Everything has been stressing me out. I may be getting a change in my thyroid medication soon. I need some time away. Everything is filling me with dread right now. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| Dec. 23rd, 2007 @ 01:48 pm Don't be too shocked! |
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I finally got a new phone... like not all old and crusty. It was hard for the people at the sprint place and I think that might be because we have such and archaic plan. GO US! Yay for having to do a mail-in rebate! Yay for being tired and sick and crappiful. JLEhjg;liawhete;hlkj Hmmmm gljwelthj
OH yeah... so basically welcome to the new century me. Your phone r make pictures! Whoa. |
| Dec. 18th, 2007 @ 03:14 pm (no subject) |
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| So I have tons of meds to take now... and if everything gets better cool. If it doesn't it could be bad. I don't really feel like writing right now. THNX |
| Dec. 18th, 2007 @ 09:19 am GRUUUMMMBBBBBBBBLEEEE |
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I get to go to the doctor at 11:30 and for those of you who don't want to hear about my illness stop reading now.
For the past two-ish months I've been severely constipated on and off and my migraines have come back, I've also been having severe skin problems again and strange allergic reactions. Basically put I feel like shit. I don't know what is wrong. I'm kind of scared.
JOFLhjawe;ohitewijslkj So now I guess I'll go take a shower and wait for my mommy to get home. |
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